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Hi, new anon here--absolutely loving everything you post, I just wanted to come in & say I really love the way you characterize the saja boys with what little concrete info we got from them, and new stuff from you has made it a delight to open my phone in the mornings this last week or so <3
If you aren't totally swamped, could I potentially request Saja Boys or Huntr/x reacting to a reader with OCD tendencies? Either with the sort of classic ones I also relate to having no sense of safety (check the lock X times, touch/turn the doorknob every time you walk past, etc.) or the more mundane ones that can present themselves. Somebody who's used to it & does sometimes wish their brain wasn't like this but will only get like, a little self conscious about being caught out, instead of getting anxious about it.
For some examples I don't see often in media etc., I can't have conversations while trying to stir smth in my drinks bc I have to do it 42 times & if I lose count I have to start over, so I just. Stop talking or looking at the other person, even though I'm listening, and don't respond until I finish my count. It's caused some fun conversations! Or the intricacies of the Candy Rituals, "no it has to be blue before red" or "sort them all by color and then eat them according to group size," or "eat the kitkat from the top down layer by layer nope I broke a layer in an Unacceptable Way instead of an Acceptable Way, I can't eat this at all now." Why does it have to be this way! Wish they could tell you, really, they'd LIKE to rip open the m&ms and dump them in their mouth but if they do the brain will ITCH. for DAYS.
Apologies if this is out of left field or you're uncomfortable with it! Mostly I just wanted you to know how much I'm enjoying your work, and how much joy it brings me to read the stuff you're posting. Hope you have a great day!
- (since i do expect to come back eventually I will label myself 🪐)
Thank you for the request! This wasn't an uncomfortable request for me at all, I'm glad your enjoying my work. Here you go!💌
🌙 Saja Boys x Reader with OCD Tendencies
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🧿 Jinu
He noticed it one week in. The way your fingers brushed the doorknob every time you passed it, even if you weren’t leaving the room. A light tap. Sometimes a turn. Sometimes you paused, then did it again.
At first, he thought it was just absentminded.
But then one night, he stood in the doorway watching you come out of the bathroom. You touched the knob, walked two steps, paused—then circled back to do it again. Twice.
When you caught his eye, your shoulders stiffened.
“Habit,” you said quickly. “Weird one.”
He tilted his head, thoughtful. “You always do it in threes.”
You froze. “Yeah. Sorry. I know it looks—”
“You don’t have to explain it,” Jinu interrupted, gently. “I just want to know if it helps.”
You blinked. “It… keeps the world in place.”
He nodded. “Then I’ll make sure no one touches that knob but you.”
The next day, he put a little charm above it. Just a tiny blue sigil, like a lock. Like backup.
He never mentioned it again.
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💪 Abby
You were halfway through mixing honey into your tea when Abby leaned over and said something funny. You didn’t laugh. Didn’t even blink.
You were counting.
And you were almost to 42.
Abby blinked. “Hey—are you mad?”
You shook your head but didn’t answer.
Not yet.
You reached 41… 42.
Then you exhaled, set the spoon down, and looked up. “Sorry. I just have to stir it a certain number of times or it feels wrong.”
“Ohhh,” he said, drawing the syllable out like it clicked in his brain. “Tea math. Got it.”
You snorted. “It’s ridiculous.”
“It’s science,” he declared with a shrug, plopping down next to you. “I won’t interrupt next time. Stir with honor.”
Later, he brought you another mug. “I stirred it for you,” he said proudly.
You raised an eyebrow. “How many times?”
He grinned. “Forty-two. I counted out loud.”
It wasn’t perfect. But the thought behind it? That made your whole chest ache in the best way.
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📚 Mystery
Mystery walked into the living room just in time to see you glare at a pile of gummy bears like they’d personally offended you.
He didn’t say anything.
Just sat beside you, silent and still, watching as you sorted them by color—then by number—then lined them up by shade.
You reached for the blue one, then stopped. Your hand hovered. Too many reds. It would throw the whole thing off.
He leaned in slowly. “Want me to eat the excess red?”
You blinked. “Seriously?”
He nodded. “You always eat blue before red.”
You stared at him.
“How do you know that?”
“I live here,” he said plainly. “You’re very consistent.”
For a second, you wanted to sink into the couch. “It’s dumb, I know. I just—”
“It’s not dumb.” His voice was soft. “Your brain is loud. Rituals keep it quiet. That’s not dumb.”
You looked down at the gummy bear army. Mystery held out his hand.
“Give me the red,” he said. “I’m good at destroying things.”
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💋 Romance
Romance was used to watching people eat beautifully plated desserts. Watching you eat was a different kind of performance.
You peeled the wrapper off your KitKat carefully, broke off one stick, and began the slow disassembly—chocolate coating, top layer, inner wafer. You were meticulous. Focused.
Then… crack.
Wrong break. Jagged. Uneven.
You froze.
Romance, mid-conversation, fell silent too. He saw the shift in your shoulders. The stillness. The subtle horror in your eyes.
He reached for the ruined piece.
“May I?”
You handed it over.
He bit into it without fanfare, smiling at you like it was the most delicious thing he’d ever tasted.
Then he reached for a second bar, broke it gently, and offered it to you. “Start again,” he said softly. “I’ll guard this one.”
You laughed. Just a little. “You’re weird.”
“So are you,” he said with a wink. “It’s perfect.”
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🔥 Baby
You doubled back halfway to the van. Again.
Baby watched from the passenger seat as you tugged at the door to the dorm, then the gate, then the latch. Checked them. Tugged. Pulled. Pressed the code again, even though you’d already done it twice.
It was the third time in five minutes.
When you climbed into the seat beside him, your face was tight.
“I know it’s locked,” you muttered. “But it doesn’t feel—”
“Want me to check it next time?” he asked simply.
You blinked at him.
“I can lock it after you, and then you can lock it again. Two locks. Like a combo move.”
You stared. “Wouldn’t that be annoying?”
Baby gave you a blank look. “You sit through my anime rants. This is the least I can do.”
The next day, you locked the door.
He locked it again.
You both nodded.
It wasn’t about logic. It was about peace.
And Baby? He’d do it as many times as it took.
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#kpdh x reader#saja boys x reader#baby x reader#jinu x reader#mystery x reader#abby x reader#romance x reader#kpop demon hunters#kpdh
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I know I have boxes of old diaries from this age but sometimes I think I'd rather set myself on fire than read anything I wrote at that age. Fortunately (?), I believe it was entirely about some boy I was ~iN lOvE~ with, which is actually preferable to my later teenage diaries that were daily 40-page screeds about how My Parents Don't Understand Me and I Want to Be A Famous Writer and I Am Trapped In A Small Town and I Read The Bell Jar Again, etc etc. The usual.
I was cleaning out old hard-drives like 5 years ago and found fragments of a novel I'd clearly started around age 16 and it was soooo SERIOUS and self-consciously attempting to be literary and also clearly based on my (boring-ass) life where nothing happened. I loved it and hated it all at once. I also found a stack of undergrad essays that I wanted to burn because my sentence structure was so bad / juvenile. If I looked at my high school essays I think I'd expire of mortification.
I was also a prolific poet between the ages of 16-22, but thankfully I haven't re-read any of that, because I don't hate myself. A few of them won a few awards (just let me brag ok) but I fear that even reading those would be devastating to my ego.
And I am once again reminded that the only way one can be a creative is to free oneself of the fear of being cringe and just write and create and keep going, despite all odds. Because you WILL be cringe no matter what you do, and you wouldn't want to not be cringe, you know? Not really.
No one ever created anything great while trying not to be cringe. You need to be cringe to create: you can't create without being earnest and experimental and fully engaged with the work of being yourself at a particular juncture in time. So much of what we find cringe is, IMO, the evidence that we existed at a certain time and place and age -- that we had thoughts and feelings and skills that were very much in line with being a certain age, or that we were still a beginner (or at least behind where we are today) in whatever art we were engaged with. That we had beliefs and thoughts that were naive or of the time or embarrassing in hindsight.
But that's kind of the human experience, you know? It's definitely the creative experience. And I maintain you can't have good writing if you aren't prepared to have bad writing. You can't connect with people or get at the messy heart of being human if you're trying to seem cool or worldly or intelligent or perfect all the time, because that's not at all what being a human is about. No point to this, except perhaps convincing myself that I SHOULD go back and read my old journals and old poems and god knows what other ephemera of my writing life exists out there.
Just go write and stop trying to be self-consciously Very Literary (although you may be unable to prevent yourself from this urge, depending on your age). But I think you also probably can't get down to the bare bones of good writing until you write badly first, and then learn how to write more simply. So I guess go write badly (which self-conscious Very Literary writing is, IMO) because it's going to help you write not-badly one day (or at least better).
And if you can't write, go read fiction or consume some other form of storytelling (movies, tv, whatever). Go read magazines and newspaper columns and online articles; go read books about writing. Sit outside and observe the world. Listen to people in conversation at coffee shops, and observe their body language and the cadence of their speech and the way people don't really speak in full sentences. Look for the little details in people's faces and clothing -- closed over ear-piercings, bitten fingernails, nervous tics, a chipped tooth. Go to parties and ask people about themselves and really listen. A writer is a chronicler, an anthropologist, a satirist, and you can't be that without first being a listener and observer.
But also don't merely observe: go live your life, and fall in love and get your heart broken, and travel, and try things, and fail and fall over a lot. And try to observe and remember these things with clarity and humour and empathy (for yourself and others) even while you're living through the joy and pain of them. I remember sobbing my way through a brutal heartbreak a few years ago and having a moment where I thought I better remember how this feels so I can use it in my writing. And that's not something I think I would have thought five or ten years ago (and certainly not before that), and it made me laugh despite my tears because I felt that I was Becoming A Writer, even if my heart was broken, so at least I had that.
No real point to this. I suppose this is the writing advice I want to give myself, and I had better go and take it.
*me, reading something 13-year old me wrote* it’s giving baddie energy. it’s giving “how’d this child write something kinda decent”
#writing#writing advice#reflections#giving myself writing advice#circular reasoning#cringe#i am cringe but i am free#creative writing#creative inspiration#creative process#essays about nothing#would you read my substack lol#writer problems#writing community#writing struggles#writer things#writer life#on writing#writer thoughts#journaling
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So @glorious-spoon expressed interest in the tags in more of my thoughts on why Eddie shuts Buck out of the house purchasing decision as referenced in this post and far be it from me to deny myself an opportunity to ramble about 9-1-1.
Eddie is clearly happy and relieved when Buck initial responds to the news of the move supportively, it’s a weight off his shoulders that he doesn’t have to worry about leaving straining their friendship, and he welcomes Buck joining him on the realtor call. So why is it that the next time Eddie talks about the move it’s to announce he’s done it all without even mentioning to Buck that he’s found a house he might like?
A mortgage and housing downpayment are not instant processes and Buck and Eddie see each other several times a week, for Buck not to know means Eddie has been making big steps that it would be natural to mention as they happen but has instead kept quiet.
And I think it circles back to Eddie’s ongoing issues with self-denial and noble suffering, in two clusters.
(It's hard to lean too much on analysis of the financial aspects because I don't have familiarity with the housing markets and pay-to-housing cost ratios of LA and El Paso and even if I did TV logic would take precedence, but…) if Eddie could afford to rent a nice enough house in LA on a firefighter's salary (& at the point of planning the move he expects to be able to get an equivalent job in El Paso), it seems reasonable to think he could rent at least an equivalent home there. Instead he buys a house that needs so much work it's uncomfortable for Eddie to live in and Helena suggests in the PS5 conversation has multiple issues that make it ill-suited for Chris to visit. I think Eddie's choice of house suggests he's still punishing himself. Eddie's perception of the root cause of his issues with Christopher was that it was caused by Eddie indulging his wants, ergo the opposite of that is to not think of his own comfort at all. Also I think some part of Eddie wants to be seen to be righteously suffering, that if Christopher sees Eddie is willing to live in a terrible house to be closer to him that will show Chris how much Eddie loves him. It also implies a degree of pessimism about what will happen in El Paso, Eddie has no hope that Chris will be quick to want to visit or stay with him, he’s expecting any resolution to take long enough that Eddie will have time to fix up the house before Chris will want to be in it. Buck’s light-hearted framing of him joining the realtor call is because some of the houses Eddie has looked at are ‘tragic’ and Buck wants to help him pick a nice one – involving Buck would mean pushback on that. It’s not necessarily conscious, but I think Eddie is aware enough that Buck might try to talk him into something nicer or ask him to explain the choice to buy a wreck of a house. Eddie is at the point in time feeling pretty insecure about his ability to withstand temptation (Kim) and some inner conflict and shame about the fact in his heart he is not 100% fine with doing whatever it takes to fix things with Chris (he’s picking Chris but he’s clearly reluctant to give up his life in LA) and I think he knows that his determination to make this drastic decision is only going to waver more if Buck starts poking well-intentioned holes in it so the solution to that is to ensure it’s a done deal without Buck getting any opportunity to sway him.
Eddie tying himself down to buying a house is in part a gesture of the seriousness of Eddie’s commitment to putting Chris before everything else, and so it has to come from Eddie. He tried getting Buck to help with Chris in the immediate aftermath of the Kim situation and Chris wasn’t receptive at all. Letting Buck contribute to the move in ways that make the process meaningfully easier would undermine Eddie’s sense of responsibility and willingness to put himself through this for Chris as punishment for his actions, if he lets Buck make things easier that’s cheating. Of course, Buck ends up being a major help anyway by subletting, but by that point Eddie has already thrown himself into the decision, Buck isn’t building him a bridge he’s just offering Eddie a line so he doesn’t sink while doing what he has already committed himself to, but Eddie’s met his own expectation that he will throw himself fully into making this sacrifice in order to repair things with Chris.
#eddie diaz#buckley diaz family#buddie#(like it's not the focus but the overall train of thought links back there)#tgd-posts
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my fully unprompted thoughts on a bentoncarter dom/sub dynamic:
carter would absolutely 100% be into being a sub. that’s not even subtext; he spends the first couple seasons of the show going “but the torment nexus is sexy and intimate! to me!” about benton bossing him around. so he would absolutely be skipping and saying yippee! at the mere thought of it.
but benton? i honestly do not know what benton would get out of being a dom.
benton's entire character arc is struggling with the walls he has put up around himself in order to Not Care About people and to not relate to them emotionally. his basest instinct when overwhelmed by hardship (reese's custody battle, reese's hearing loss, jackie's son dying) is to shut down and turn inward and become a complete stone wall to everyone else—to resort to anger as the only palpable way to express the raw despair bubbling inside.
and specifically in regards to his distance in romantic relationships: in season 1 benton put so much effort into having an affair with jeanie, only to break up extremely painlessly and immediately. even with all the material effort he invested into sneaking around with her, he did not have that emotional attachment with her at all. he put in the Amount of Conscious Effort he needed to to have a relationship with her, but there was none of his soul in it. (even though clearly he hooked up with her as a coping mechanism as his mother was dying, to be close with another person who understood him without benton having to say anything—so he was subconsciously searching for connection—but this was disconnected to the extent that he could break it off with her immediately.)
i'm reminded of early season 5 when he and elizabeth broke up: benton is emotionally shuttering and lashing out because reese's loss of hearing is overwhelming him, and lizzie's requests to participate in his problems and share the burden are continually rebuffed. she tells him: “hey, you aren't emotionally available to me, and we should break up—but i am still here for you, and we are still friends.” and benton absorbs the break-up unemotionally, continuing with the trend of extreme compartmentalization of himself from others, but specifically when lizzie mentions that she's still his friend (regardless of how he has materially treated her the last two weeks, she is still offering an olive branch to connect to him, and unlike a romantic relationship, it is not dependent on benton's actions or emotional maturity): benton smiles at that! somewhere, under his walls and his detachment, he feels relief at having a solid connection to another person!
do i think benton would, in his sex life, default to acting out a level of detached control that would fit into a dom/sub dynamic? sure!
can't say how good i think he'd be at it, considering (imo) that kink is about recognition of the self through the other, and there's no chance this man is thinking about anyone else in his bed with the emotional depth to have fun with it. if he is a dom, it would be a continuation of his regular deep-seated need to keep careful, cordoned control of his life and by extension his partners' lives—which is a character flaw that is weighing him down with the singular weight of the world on his shoulders, not something bringing him life and joy and fun. bdsm is, at its core, acting with someone—but benton acts 24/7 in his daily life to keep people at arms' reach from him! and he fucking hates it! and yet he's not going to stop because he views it as his burden to bear!
my thesis is that i think sex could be a great way for benton to Finally experience a level of intimacy with another person that is free from the walls he's put up around himself and the way that he consciously separates himself from others.
but i don't think it would be as part of a power dynamic.
i think this man needs to have extremely vulnerable vanilla sex where there is communicated to him on a level deeper than words (or even actions) that he is loved and that he is celebrated and that he can let go now.
#tl;dr: carter needs to finger benton until he cries and then they hug for 15-20 minutes.#this post is brought to you by me outlining a slightly-sub!carter bentoncarterknight fic.#and me trying to figure out what benton gets out of it. like: if carter is subservient to him in a way reminiscent of their work dynamic#would benton think it is hot? or would he simply be reminded of the entire can of worms that is work? i think the latter!#bentoncarter#bentonposting#peter benton#john carter#er#the bentoncarter agenda#<- i'm hearing reports this is a real tag people are using now. fuck yeah.
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Going to do this to see if it'll help with the questioning process! I'll skip questions I don't want to answer or aren't applicable.
Questioning kintype
4. It feels like I can know more about myself, if that makes sense? I struggle with my sense of identity as Reki is apart of it, so it helps me get a better understanding of myself.
5. Haven't interacted with the community much. But I did meet a Langa fictionkin a few days ago when I publicly announced I was questioning on another site, and they were really nice :)
6. Nope, but I know I'm not going to get positive reception at all.
7. One person, my ex-qpp. He's been supportive and helped me learn about the term initially since he's also a fictionkin.
9. I like how a lot of people have very different experiences, it's very nice to hear from others. A lot of people are pretty open about it and very nice :D
10. A lot of my outfits are pretty baggy, streetwear-like so some of my friends have told me I look like a "skater boy." Even if they were joking, it made me REALLY happy.
11. I'm pretty sure I've had mental shifts. Sometimes I feel like I'm so "in the zone" whenever I'm doing something artistic like drawing, doing paper crafts, etc. Usually I have something on in the background but during these moments, I'm hyperfocused for several hours. Other times I just. Feel like Reki. Idk how to describe it, I feel like I get way more outgoing, loud, and kinda unapologetically myself and am more open about my interests. (Kinda backfires on me as afterwards, I feel incredibly self conscious)
12 & 13. Unsure! I'm pretty disconnected from my source. Wouldn't mind running into sourcemates. It would feel like running into someone you know who works at the same company but in a different branch /pos
14. Also unsure,,,, I'm only like 70% sure I'm a fictionkin, so it kinda feels like I would be faking when I meet one? And I don't want them to feel like, for example, Miya Chinen is talking to some wannabe Reki Kyan roleplayer.
15. I had a pfp drawn by one of my favorite artists who's works were f2u w/ credit, and I REALLY like having that for a short while. But I generally don't like feeling connected to any fanmade works not made by me or specifically for me as it feels like I'm being disrespectful by making someone else's work my identity. If that makes sense
16. Yes! Someone made me a moodboard after I requested it. And I made birthday art for myself featuring Reki.
17. Kinda? In the sense where I have no connection to the source. I'm Reki Kyan if you took away his relationships, memories, and almost the entire plot of the show.
18. Questioned if I was a therian about a year ago and came to the conclusion that I'm just otherhearted. However, I feel like I have some kind of copinglink! Haven't thought too deeply about it.
19 & 20. I think Reki is both a spiritual and psychological identity. Not in a past life but I believe that in an alternative universe currently in the same time, I am Reki. But also we have so many similarities that from the moment I saw him on screen, it felt like I was seeing myself. I see myself in him so much to the point where it feels like we're the same person.
21. I've felt this way towards Reki for 3-4 years now, since I first started watching Sk8 the Infinity. But I only learned about the fictionkin community about 6 months ago and started questioning since then.
26. Still unsure whether I am fictionhearted or a fictionkin. Pretty sure I'm the latter but there's some doubts about how involuntary it is. But then again, I'm a very big overthinker!
29. Kinda answered it already, me learning about the fictionkin community!
37. Oh, most definitely. Reki is a cis guy. I am a person with no attachment to any gender. However, I really like expressing myself in a more masculine/androgynous way.
38. Also most definitely! Reki has no confirmed sexuality but a lot of people believe he's bi (myself included) due to his interest in girls and his theorized attraction towards Langa. I'm aroace, more specifically bellusromantic, quiromantic, and apothisexual.
39. It is NOT a big deal and also stop being so apologetic?? You're literally doing nothing wrong by questioning homie, why are you feeling so irrationally bad /lh
40. I have a link in my pinned to a good handful of resources I've used including blogs, articles, and ebooks that have helped me either learn more about the community or how to figure out my identity if anyone's interested :3
This was fun!! Thank you so much for sharing these questions!
Fictionfolk Experiences Ask Game
Yeah, you. Fictionkin, fictive, fictionhearted, fictionlinker, fictionflicker--whatever else you may be in the tags. I wanna get some potentially positivity and experience sharing going because there's some Stuff that isn't great in the tags right now but ALSO I think fictionfolk as a whole (and not just identify-as fictionfolk but yes those too) deserve a nice little platform to share their experiences. So, use this ask game. Or just reblog and answer the questions. Or post the answers yourself. Be free.
1. What's your fictional identity (hearttype, kintype, etc)?
2. If you have multiple, do you have one you're closer to than the others, or is more important to your identity overall?
3. How many fictional identities do you have?
4. What's your favourite part about being fictionfolk?
5. What's a positivie interaction that's happened as a result of your fictional identity?
6. Have you told any people in your offline life about your fictional identity and gotten a positive reaction?
7. Have you told any people in your online life about your fictional identity and gotten a positive reaction?
8. Is there anyone you've met as a result of your interactions in the community who's very important to you now?
9. What's your favourite thing about the fictionfolk community?
10. Tell us about a time you've experienced species/identity euphoria as a result of one of your fictional identities.
11. Do you experience any shifts (mental, phantom, dream, etc) of your fictional identity? Share a bit about those and how they feel!
12. Do you have any canonmates (if applicable)?
13. Do you have any sourcemates (if applicable)?
14. Do you wish to seek out canonmates/sourcemates? Why/why not?
15. Do you have a favourite piece of fanart/fanfic/etc that ties into your identity? Share it (with credit)!
16. Do you have any art/fic/etc specifically made for you as a fictionfolk of your specific identity (made by yourself or someone else)? Share it!
17. Does your fictional identity differ from source in any way/is it canon divergent? Explain a bit about that!
18. Are there aspects of your fictional identity that you previously questioned, decided weren't a part of your identity, but you still look fondly upon? (Past 'types, etc).
19. Do you have any spiritual identities? Explain a bit about that!
20. Do you have any psychological identies? Explain a bit about that!
21. How old were you when you discovered/chose your first fictional identity?
22. Did you ever take a break from the community, but came back later? What made you come back?
23. Have you ever considered fictionlinking? If you already have, what made you decide to do it?
24. If you decided to 'link a fictional character, who would it be and why?
25. If you decided to 'link a fictional species, what would it be and why?
26. Have you ever questioned being fictionhearted? If you already are, what started your questioning into that connection?
27. Do you have any fictional hearthomes? What are your favourite things about them?
28. Have you ever questioned being a fictionbased archetrope? If you already are, what's your archetropal identity?
29. Have you ever questioned being fictionkin? If you already are, what started your discovery of that connection?
30. Have you ever had a fictotype turn out to be a fictionflicker or vice versa? What was that like?
31. Do you have any fictionflickers? What are they, and how do they make you feel?
32. If you're a system, do you have any collective fictional identities?
33. If you're a system, how many fictional identities do you have across all of your headmates?
34. Do you have any soulbonds from a fictional source? Share a bit about that!
35. Do you have any memories/noemata around your fictional identity? Share some if you'd like!
36. If you do have memories/noemata, what's your favourite?
37. Does your identity intersect with your gender in any way? Share a bit about that!
38. Does your identity intersect with your sexuality in any way? Share a bit about that!
39. Is there anything you'd have loved to hear back when you were first questioning your identity?
40. Is there anything you'd like to share toward fictionfolk who may just be starting to look into the community?
41. Free space! Share anything about your identity/ies that you'd like to!
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I LOVE MULTIMEDIA-ING FANFICTIONS
#IT'S LITERALLY SO FUN. EVERYONE SHOULD FEEL LESS SELF-CONSCIOUS ABOUT MAKING SILLY THINGS LIKE THIS FOR THEIR FICS#IT GETS ME SO HYPED UP ABOUT MY IDEAS. I still don't know if I'll finish this fic but MAGAZINE ARTICLE BE UPON YE#also it's low-key necessary for my nuclear weapons AU. It's impossible to have the characters explain this in an organic way#but it only takes like five sentences if you can just. write it in a magazine article#I stayed up WAY too late making this. RIP#I FEEL LIKE A TEENAGER AGAIN 10/10. STAYING UP PAST MY BEDTIME DOING FANDOM STUFF#gay herald in a squirrel suit
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Zooble likes how easy it is to make me laugh. Also they love the way my laugh sounds and have no idea why anyone would ever make me feel bad for it :3
#ALSO they think it's cute the way I have a hard time stopping myself from laughing#I can imagine my f/os liking things I'm self conscious abkut. as a treat <3#I've been made to feel bad abkut my laugh my whole life (I have had people including my own family tell me to stop laughing before)#also people used to make me laugh and then make fun of me for laughing#so anymore I try to just Not do jt around anyone kr qhere anyone can hear me#so the thought of me laughing in in front of them and immediately apolozing for jt#only for them to be like Don't apologize I liked that and I want to hear it again#ooough 🥺#okay I'm going to try and go back to sleep nkw lol
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Reminder to ALL my followers and ESPECIALLY my mutuals.
I have severe anxiety and I tend to overthink what people say and I am also extremely self conscious.
@foxgirl87
#I'm telling you anxiety is a absolute bitch#Yes Fox you're the one making me self conscious#It's just sometimes you make me feel like a bad guy in a situation#I'm sure it's not what you're trying to make me feel#But I just tend to miss social cues with also being autistic#And listen I'm not trying to make you feel bad or guilt trip you#I don't wanna do that#It's just I had to reveal the truth at some point#I couldn't keep it bottled up forever#Man this sure was a fun rant#/hj#Humour is my only way of coping with my anxiety
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okokokok you know what. the lesbian label fits me best specifically because i hate romance & falling in love i think all that shit's stupid. The only thing thats worth it in life is having a tension filled two-little-girls-on-the-playground-pretending-to-be-horses level intensity friendship where basically no words or outside concepts exist beside the deep fascination and kinship you have with another human being & its a friendship to the outside world but on the inside its an unspeakable understanding of self & other with no limits or boundaries as to the aspects that are concealed and revealed and the kind of intimacy that is possible & the only rule is having fun and keeping up the synchronicity thats vibrating between your two spirits. Sorry if that makes me sound like a cringe hippe but genuinely people who are like i wanna fall in looooove im like your desires are lame & small and i pity you. Romance-love is inferior to playground bff friendship-love in every way but we live in a society that does everything to hide this fact from people....why.....
#& i don't mean a sexless friendship i really mean all types of intimacy are possible. but they're not EXPECTED theres no script#sex happens if it feels relevant & interesting but otherwise why would it#& this kind of thing genuinely does go beyond gender its just that men are usually incapable of letting this happen#its what i have with my gf by the way we're best frieeends but also i want to know a lot of people this way#except almost no one gets it...its my burden in this life to try to make people understand#when you turn an intense friendship into a romantic rship you lose something invaluable and then its gone forever#not because you've added sex into it cause you can in fact do that. its just people don't know how. its a careful & difficult process#you have to remain present & not lose yourself in a movie script that tells you what to do & how to be. instead you have to keep being#yourself & only doing things that arise naturally. people have no trouble doing it until they get self conscious & then its impossible#do you see my life burden
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bathing with them
ft : dorm leaders (riddle, leona, azul, kalim, vil, idia, malleus)
a/n : i crave nonsexual intimacy
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riddle takes a bit of convincing. he prefers to be independent, and that extends to almost every aspect of his life, including this one. it takes a while for him to give, but he's not resistant to your puppy eyes. his tub is barely big enough to comfortably fit the two of you. there are rose petals and a sweet honeysuckle scented soap, as per the queen's rules. his muscles are still a bit stiff after getting in, but when you begin lathering soap on his back and rubbing it in, he practically melts in your arms.
leona has to be dragged out of bed. he showers when he has to, but he's not a big fan of his fur getting wet—plus, he'd much rather sleep the day away. still, after a bit of convincing he lets you take him to the bath, although he might make you run it again if the water temperature isn't warm enough. he prefers to wash himself, but he doesn't swat you away if you want to help him out a little. you try reaching up to wash behind his ears, but his glare quickly changes your mind.
azul is, frankly, scared of being so vulnerable in front of another person. especially when that vulnerability involves his body. maybe he's not as self-conscious as he once was, but it doesn't simply disappear. still, he caves eventually, though he covers himself as much as he can with his arms. he's worried how you'll react, but when you don't say anything he begins to loosen up, just a little. he shivers when you gently trace his stretch marks. he rushes through it and gets out of the bath fairly quickly, but it's a start.
kalim's bathtub is so big it may as well be a swimming pool, with about every product you can think of. he's happy to share it all with you, filling the water with suds and making the entire room smell wonderful. he insists on washing your hair for you, and when it dries, it's softer than ever before. the two of you stay in until the water is cold and your skin is wrinkled, having spent half the time just talking and playing.
vil has only the best products, and they all have matching lavender scents, too. he narrates as he washes you, telling you what each thing does and how to properly use them. his skin is soft but his touch is a bit rough, although it's all worth it in the end when you come out feeling cleaner than ever. he has fluffy, warm towels and robes waiting for you once you're done, though even after you step out, he has plenty more skincare items to use on you.
idia curses himself for not making his tablet waterproof as he stumbles his way through his words, trying not to look at you. he flusters easily, and there's a faint pink tinge to his hair that doesn't go away. he lets you wash him for a bit before it fully sets in what you're doing and he takes over. in return, he gives you a nice shoulder and back massage, being (un)surprisingly skilled at working with his hands. after he's dressed, he's gone instantly. his dating sims hadn't quite prepared him for this.
malleus finds it amusing how little you fear him; the idea of bathing with him would have anyone else cowering, and yet here you are. he teases you a little to coax you into washing him—he's royalty, he's always had someone else to help him, and you wouldn't make the crown prince bathe himself, would you? it's all bullshit, of course, he's very capable of washing himself, but he loves having all your attention on him.
#fic.txt#twisted wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#riddle rosehearts x reader#leona kingscholar x reader#azul ashengrotto x reader#kalim al asim x reader#vil schoenheit x reader#idia shroud x reader#malleus draconia x reader#twisted wonderland yume#twst yume#twisted wonderland yumeship#twst yumeship
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not to keep harping on this but if you HATE shaving your body or any other part of your "beauty routine": stop doing it. just stop doing it, at least for a little while (maybe when you don't have a lot going on if that helps) and HONESTLY gauge how it makes you feel. is this feeling better or worse than the amount of time, stress, and money the routine takes? do YOU actually prefer how you looked before, or are you only worried about what others think? if you stopped doing the routine forever, could you find other ways to feel better about yourself with that energy?
when I was like 19 and the idea of not shaving my legs anymore first occurred to me (bc I had a Cool Progressive Boyfriend that Didn't Care) i just stopped and it was immediately like... a quantifiably large chunk of unnecessary anxiety just sloughed off my life forever. instantaneously I got rid a bunch of effort and stress I had been accepting as normal, and replaced it with more time to do what actually made me feel 'ready' in the morning, like hygiene, coffee, preparing for my activities etc.
and i DONT feel self conscious about body hair personally but even if I did, no amount of shame over hair could outweigh how much easier my life is. not just bc 'shaving annoying' or 'long showers' or whatever, but like. yeah I don't waste as much time getting ready anymore, and I also don't have to realize last minute before some leg-showing event that im unfit for display and have a whole self-esteem plummeting anxiety attack about whether I should rush it unsafely and risk being late, cut up, and stressed out before the event, or go With Hair and feel judged the whole time. i don't have to go through any of those emotions and when anyone does comment on my hair rudely, im in a much healthier place to deal with it and tell them to fuck off rather than validate THEIR fucked up standards by feeling bad.
once I realized I didn't give a shit and neither did anyone I cared about, it also gave me the freedom to cut out a bunch of other shit I was only doing (or Thinking I Should) bc it was what girls Have To Do to be presentable. fuck shaving fuck waxing fuck eyebrow shaping fuck concealer fuck multi step skincare fuck shapewear fuck lip fillers fuck contouring fuck teeth whitening fuck all of it, you do not need to change ANYTHING about how you look Every Single Day.
for those of you about to say "but I like being shaven/wearing makeup/literally pulling hair out of my face painfully every day etc etc etc":
have fun and mod your avatar all you want but for gods sake if you hate it and complain about how long it takes and all the stuff you "have" to buy or do just to "get ready" - you do not have to. you're not just having fun. you are not getting Ready, you are making your mood and experience worse for yourself, which is going to make you feel unready and unprepared for actually being yourself comfortably.
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Thinking about how nice to be loved and how it has changed me but for the better. I am yearning and I am yearned for
#rosyadventurings#boyf tag#I'm just like. this person loves me? he sees my flaws#he sees my weaknesses#and yet not only does he hold me in his arms#but he trusts me with his burdens all the same#I went from feeling self conscious about saying stupid bits and being myself#to being recognized not just as a person but as an individual#LIKE I GET IT MY EX WAS SHITTY#but I felt I was trying to be perfect for my ex#I don't even need to BE anything other than myself for my boyfriend now#anyway I am just feeling emotions#edit: I wanna mention there is a lot of stuff he does to make me feel this way#but I think like. him finding me desirable when I'm just wearing work out gear#or saying I will buy you a better plushie when he thinks I'm looking at a claw machine#and ESPECIALLY when he buys my a PRINTER so I can start a sticker business#he is looking at me and saying I love this person and I want them to be happy#there is so much more he does too I'm still just in my feelings
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friends?


alt: things they do that make you question their friendship
ot7 x reader warnings: none
masterlist
heeseung: calling you pet names
when you and heeseung first met, he always called you by your name. but one day that changed. you two were cooking in the kitchen when he called for you.
"hey, baby. can pass me the salt?"
you nearly broke your neck trying to see who he was talking to since it was only the two of you. once you realized he was talking to you, your quickly became embarrassed- hiding your red face in your hands. heeseung loved your reaction, so of course he started calling you every pet name he could think of whenever he had the chance.
"hey honey. can you come here?"
"what do you think of this one, sweetheart?"
"angel, what do you want to eat?"
you never thought you would get used to it- always flushing when he called you anything other than your name. but one day, he called you by your name to see your reaction. the pout you gave him nearly broke him. in fact, it did. he spent the next five minutes on the floor before he could even attempt to stand up stand up. he pulled you into his arms as he teased you even more.
"aw. i knew you liked my nicknames, angel."
the nicknames never stopped- only got worse. as did your feelings. you could only hope that he didn't do it just for your reaction. that he did it because he felt the same.
rest under the cut
jonseong: being protective of you
jay has always been overprotective of you. ever since the two of you met, it was like you had a human guard dog. you could completely shut your mind off around jay and know you were completely safe.
jay would almost always go with you when you went out in public. if you were walking on the sidewalk, he would always make sure he was on the outside. if you were crossing the street, his hand would be on your back guiding you. doors? you've never opened one when your with jay. he even buckles your seatbelt if you don't do it before he starts the car.
"jay, really?"
"your safety is my priority."
if you were confident enough to wear something revealing, he would always keep an eye for any wardrobe malfunctions. and if your confidence suddenly went away and you start feeling self conscious, jay's jacket would be draped over you before you would even realize it.
"why did you do that?"
"i could tell you were uncomfortable."
"what if you get cold?"
"then i'll buy another jacket."
when you two were at a party, and some guy would walk up to you. the guy would barely get two words in before jay was by your side, wrapping his arm around your waist and glaring at the guy. after he ran them off, he would look down at you with a soft smile.
"they weren't good enough for you."
"you always say that."
"and i'm always right."
it never occurred to you before why he did these things. it wasn't until one of your friends questioned you about these things that you started questioning them. the realization of your feelings for him hit you like a truck. you never wanted him to stop doing these things for you- and he never wanted to stop either.
jaeyun: always touching you in some way
jake is a big fan of physical touch, especially with you. having grown up together, you two were always very close. but it was after you two were grown that something shifted.
his touches got more frequent- and more intimate. he started blurring the lines of your guys friendship. at first you brushed it off, but it eventually came to a point that you couldn't anymore.
for example, you two always got asked if you were dating, even as teenagers. jake used to always speak up first, denying it which you never had any issues with. but one day he just stopped denying them. instead, he pulled you closer before thanking them with a bright smile.
"you two are such a cute couple!"
"thank you!"
or when you two had your weekly movie nights, you used to sit next to each other without touching. now jake has to be touching (or cuddling) you in some way, or he turns into a whining mess.
"you're so far away!"
"jake, i'm sitting right next to you."
"your point?"
he also now holds your hand 24/7, in public and in private, and lord help you if you pull away. he'll stand still, not even caring if it's in the middle of the sidewalk, and refuse to move until you hold his hand again.
"jake, what are you doing?"
"i can't function unless i'm holding your hand."
eventually, you started to see him in a different light. one that you hoped he saw you in as well. but until then, you would continue to power through these moments while falling more in love with your best friend- while hoping he felt the same.
sunghoon: not treating you like he does his other friends
you and sunghoon were the types of people that no one saw being friends. the two of you were complete opposites. you were summer, and he was winter. you were loud, and he was quiet. so how the two of you become good friends was a mystery.
you would be lying if you said you never had feelings for him. who wouldn't. you had already come to the acceptance that he would never feel the same way, but then one of your friends started pointing out things he would do that he didn't do for others. you brushed her off after listening to her. you didn't believe her at first, but then you started watching.
if your friend group were hanging out together, one he was always sitting by you. and then two, he jacket would always end up over your legs- even if you were wearing pants. you motioned one time to your friend next to him who was wearing a skirt.
"what about her? she's probably cold and i'm not."
"she's not my concern. you are."
if you two were ordering food, he would always ask you what you wanted before, so he could tell the waiter because he knew you didn't like to order your food. and when you've been to that place multiple times, he doesn't even ask- already knowing your order.
"what if i wanted something different?"
"you don't. you don't like change."
the final straw you friend had was when you guys visited the arcade which you did so frequently. they had just changed out the plushies in the claw machine, and you wanted one. one look from sunghoon, and he was at the machine winning you the plushie. one of the other girls asked if he could get her one as well, but he refused.
"sunghoon, why didn't you help her out?"
"didn't feel like it."
it took you a while, but you finally confronted that he does treat you differently than the rest of your friends. but that didn't mean he felt the same about you. you weren't going to say anything though because you were too scared to loose him. you would just continue being delusional and thinking that there may be a chance he likes you back.
seonwoo: always spending time with you
you and sunoo met mutually from jungwon, the two of you having grown up with each other. from the first time you and sunoo met, you two were inseparable. where one was, there was a 95% that the other was there as well.
whenever he had free time, he was over at your place. it was to a point where he didn't even ask. he just showed up, letting himself in your place with the key you gave him. he's given you enough scares to last a life time.
"sunoo! when did you get here?"
"about 10 minutes ago. that new show came out, and i want to watch it with you."
then whenever he had a schedule but still wanted to see you, you had no problem staying at the dorms. he would always beat you to the door, opening it before pulling you into a hug.
"yn! i missed you."
"you saw me yesterday though."
"and that was 24 hours too long."
and of course, the guys would always tease the two of you for spending so much time together.
"do you two ever get tired of each other?"
"do you ever get tired of breathing?"
you didn't think it was strange- the two of you spending so much time together. it wasn't until jay actually pointed out how much time the two of you spent together that you realized that you saw him more than you saw your other friends.
and then came the realization why you were so happy to spend time with him. when you spoke to your friends about it, they all teased you, telling you it was time you realized your feelings. but then came the hard part. waiting for him to realize them.
you would though. and if he didn't reciprocate your feelings and confessed to you, you would take your secret to the grave. because being around him while hiding your feelings somehow seemed easier than not having him in your life at all.
jungwon: giving you compliments
jungwon was your number one supporter, and he never let you forget it. every time he saw you, he would give you at least one compliment before you could even tell him hello.
if you got a new shirt, he would know.
"you got a new shirt?"
"i did!"
"it looks so good on you! you should wear that color more often. it really brings out the color of your eyes."
if you got a haircut, his hands would instantly be playing with it.
"you like it, won?"
"like it? i didn't think you could get any prettier, but you just love proving me wrong, don't you."
one day, he was having a rough day, so you surprised him with a homecooked meal. you had never seen him smile so big.
"i didn't know you were a chef!"
"i'm not. i followed a recipe for this."
"you're so talented! i'd eat your cooking everyday."
every time you would question him about compliments, he would tell you that someone like you deserved many compliments. so it wasn't surprising to you when you caught yourself falling for him. he was just so sweet to you in a way you noticed he wasn't like for anyone else.
you hoped one day soon he would confess he felt the same way. because if not, all of his compliments would make you loose your mind.
riki: letting you win games
you and riki first met online- playing games. so it wasn't shocking that you two played a lot in your free time. the two of you were also switching between games while trying new ones. the only disagreement came when you two couldn't decided on what to play.
"rock, paper, scissors?"
"riki, you always lose."
"i don't know what you're talking about. i never loose."
and of course, just like every other time, he played paper when you played rock. you always just thought he was horrible at the game. not that he always knew you played rock first.
then came the games you two played. every time it was 2v2, you would win at the last second. you weren't a sore winner, but you always bumped riki's shoulder with a teasing smile.
"i thought you said you were good at this game?"
"maybe i'm just having an off day."
you didn't start to question anything until you hung out with him and his friends one afternoon. of course, they wanted to play games which you were completely fine with. you and riki sat next to each other while he played everyone. he also won every single time.
"riki, you normally suck at this game."
"these guys are just worse than i am."
you then played a round with one of guys riki won against, and you lost. though when you and riki played, you won just like you always did. you were finally able to put two and two together- that he was letting you win. riki hated losing yet here he was, yet here he was loosing purposefully for you.
once you realized that, it didn't take long for your feelings for him to grow into something more. especially after the smiles he gave you every time you won. you couldn't bring yourself to say anything though. you just waited patiently-waiting for him to reveal he felt the same about you.
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HER HO!NY HUSBAND : GOJO SATORU



tw. suggestive, gojo flashes his goodies
Husband!Gojo coming out of the shower with a wet muscular body and a piece of towel hanging along his waist—only to see his wife laying on the bed right in front of him.
Pregnant Wife!Yn who had been insecure of her growing belly and weight since a couple months due to her pregnancy, watches Gojo check her from head to toe, an unexplainable look on his handsome pale face.
Sitting upright, she fixes her loose garments. Maybe he’s finally come to the realisation of not being such a big fan of my mom body.
Husband!Gojo sensing her dejected mood, snaps out of his internal thoughts as he decides to reach out and sit next to her instead.
“Baby? Something’s bothering?” he asks softly, tucking a long strand of hair behind her ear.
Pregnant Wife!Yn ever a self-conscious overthinker, mumbles while looking up at her husband, “I saw you gazing at me few a many times now...” she fixes her garment again, in embarrassment “like... weirdly. You start looking stiff all of a sudden, as if you want to confess something. About my bad shape maybe.”
At her confession, Satoru pauses, lips parted open slightly and not sure which part to explain first. He brings a wet but comforting hand on her swollen belly.
“Silly girl. Are you worrying about your plump little adorable tummy again? I told you I like it.”
Pregnant Wife!Yn frowns, not really sure of his words. “Really? Then how would you explain everytime you stopped to stare at me? Your face doesn't seem as if you love it—or even like it, Toru.”
Husband!Gojo who shakes his head, body turning more towards her distressed wife. “I don't like it? I love you and every part of you babe, you know me.”
Yn sighs softly, looking down with an upset face. “I do... but maybe i shouldn't have asked for a baby. I just... I feel like you'd have appreciated my old body more, Toru.”
Satoru snaps his head towards her, eyebrows raised in disbelief. This was his last straw. She has to know what his pregnant, innocent wife does to him.
As he stands up slowly from the edge of the bed, he makes sure she's all eyes and ears. “Oh really now. Then I must give you a real reason to never regret your baby with me...”
Undoing the towel hooked on his dripping wet waist, the white haired man reveals his lower half of the riches. As her eyes set down, there comes in view an almost fully hard wet length of Gojo Satoru.
Pregnant Wife!Yn being taken aback, is unable to react for a good few first seconds, mouth agape. Light hue of red crawls up the neck to settle on her cheeks, when her husband hums in question.
“Mm? You see this? This is what you do to me, silly girl.”
Everything seemed suddenly more reasonable—Gojo stealing those frequent long gazes, his odd body language while he checks his pregnant wife out. Gojo gets aroused.
Pregnant Wife!Yn tears her gaze away from his manhood, cold sweat making her feel more or less like her currently out of shower dripping wet husband. Oh the thoughts that might be running in his perverted brain, all the ways he could take you in and you wouldn't be moving away with all the weight you bear of his baby, but comply, and relish, and whine.
“Oh-oh...” she mumbles shyly, the revelation lessening her insecurity effectively more than all sweet words combined could have ever had.
an. husband gojo >>> also this is my 1k readers special! ty for giving my writings your time, love y'all. likes & rbs are appreciated <33
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OKAY BUT IMAGINE the very time you ever mention kids around either Matt or Chris. like the relationship is getting serious yknow, and you just casually mention ‘our kids are gonna be so cute’ or ‘do you think they’ll have your eyes or mine?’ like they would absolutely LOSE IT. they would get all gushy and instantly be like ‘we can make one right now’ or ‘we can practice for the future’
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤOUR KIDS ARE GONNA BE CUTE * MATT STURNIOLO * BLURB
SUMMARY :: where Y/N mentions her thoughts about their future children to Matt for the first time, and he absolutely lose it.
FEATURING Matt Sturniolo x reader
WARNINGS :: Mentions of becoming parents.
AUTHOR'S NOTE :: that is my work, I DON'T authorize any form of plagiarism; copy, "inspiration" or translation! | english isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if there's any grammar error.
The air smelled like warm vanilla from Y/N's candle burning on the coffee table, and the only sounds were the faint hum of a playlist Matt had thrown on shuffle and the occasional rustling of a blanket being adjusted.
Y/N and Matt were on the floor of the living room, a mess of art supplies spread out between them.
It had started as a joke when Matt pointed at his last drawing glued to the fridge, making some comment about never being able to color inside the lines as a kid, and Y/N had promptly pulled out one of those oversized coloring books meant for children, the ones with thick, black-outlined cartoons and pages that smelled like paper from an elementary school classroom.
So now, here they were, stomach-down on the living room floor, legs bent at the knees and swinging absentmindedly while Y/N concentrated on shading in a cartoonish giraffe. Matt was beside her, hunched over a page with his tongue slightly poking out in concentration as he attempted to color a macaw in different shades of blue.
"This is always so relaxing." Matt muttered, switching to a green crayon to shade the macaw wing. "Think' m'brain just shut off in the best way."
Y/N hummed in agreement, watching the way his fingers moved, slightly calloused from years of gripping drumsticks and gaming controllers, now delicately holding a crayon as if it were something precious.
After a few minutes of comfortable silence, Y/N sighed contently and let her head drop against her arm, admiring the half-colored giraffe in front of her.
"Our kids are gonna be so cute coloring together. Imagine them coming to us with a new drawing every day."
It was such a casual, passing comment, said with the same energy as commenting on the weather. But the moment the words left her lips, the entire room seemed to freeze.
Actually, no. Matt froze.
Like, completely.
His fingers went slack. The tiny crayon rolled off and disappeared somewhere into the carpet, but he didn’t even register it.
Our kids.
His heart did a backflip. Then another. Then it practically shot into orbit.
Y/N, still focused on her giraffe, didn’t notice the way that his posture went rigid, or how he turned his head to look at her as fast as humanly possible, blue eyes wide and blinking like she had just uttered the most beautiful words in the English language.
Our kids.
She said our kids.
Matt inhaled sharply, trying to calm the way his chest was suddenly tight with love.
"What?" His voice came out slightly choked.
Y/N glanced up at him, eyebrows raising slightly at his reaction.
"What?" She echoed, suddenly feeling self-conscious. "Did I- was that weird?"
Matt shook his head rapidly, his mouth opening and closing like he was trying to form a sentence, but his brain had just blue-screened.
"No! No, no, no, it’s not weird, it’s just-" He exhaled sharply, then, out of nowhere, let out an actual whine, burying his face in his hands.
Y/N blinked.
"Matt?"
"I’m gonna lose my mind." He groaned dramatically, peeking at her through his fingers.
His milky skin was now flushed in a deep shade of pink, and his big eyes were so ridiculously, stupidly soft that it made Y/N’s heart stutter.
"You can’t just say that out of nowhere, baby. I was not prepared. I was having a normal, peaceful time, and then you just drop that on me?"
Y/N’s lips twitched in amusement.
"Drop what? That our kids are gonna be cute?"
Matt let out a noise that was somewhere between a laugh and a strangled gasp, as if he physically could not handle the sheer concept of it. He shot up onto his knees, ignoring the slight pain coming from his ankle with the moviments and placing both hands on Y/N’s cheeks with sudden urgency.
"Say it again."
Y/N giggled, tilting her head.
"What, that our kids-"
"Angel, I swear to God, you’re gonna put me in an early grave." He looked like he was having a full existential crisis, running a hand through his hair before gripping the back of his neck as if trying to steady himself. "Can we make one right now? I'm fully prepared to be a dad, just realized it-"
Y/N burst out laughing, shoving his shoulder lightly.
"Matthew!"
"I’m being so serious." He insisted, grabbing Y/N’s hands and squeezing them like a man possessed. "You don’t understand, baby. I love kids. I’ve always loved kids. And then you’re here, coloring next to me, saying words like ‘our kids,’ and now I can't stop thinking of a mini mix of me and you coloring in our living room."
Y/N swore she felt her heart physically swell, tilting her head and observing his gentle expression.
"... Do you think they’ll have your eyes or mine? Because, personally, I think they’d look adorable with your eyes."
"Matt." She whispered, a little overwhelmed by how utterly, devastatingly in love with him she was in that moment.
His face softened even more, which Y/N hadn’t even thought was possible.
"I’m serious." He murmured, thumb brushing over her knuckles. "You see a future with me like that? Do you really?"
Y/N nodded without hesitation.
"Of course, I do. The prettiest and most perfect future."
His expression melted into something so tender that it made Y/N’s chest ache. He leaned in, pressing his forehead against hers, his breath tickling her upper lip.
"Good." He whispered. "Because I think about that all the time. And now I’m never gonna stop thinking about it."
Y/N smiled, nudging her nose against his.
"So, we’re in agreement?"
Matt grinned, eyes twinkling.
"Our kids are gonna be very cute."
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🎁Baptise in Your Thighs Till it Hurts 🎁
🎁Pairings: Satoru Gojo x Reader x Ryomen Sukuna
🎁Summary- You are broke for Christmas, so you decide to take an offer to strip for some powerful CEO's, what you don't know is these two hand picked you, and now they're fighting over your body for Christmas- PWP there is NO PLOT lol
🎁CW- MDNI- Oral sex (m and f recieving) degradation, dollification lowkey, lots of dirty talk, Sukuna calls reader slut, whore etc- rough sex, threesome, eifel tower, multiple orgasms, p in v sex, multiple creampies, decorating reader w/xmas lights, Satoru whimpering and going feral, Sukuna smacking us around a bit, teensy bit of coke use, they're yandere, competitive sex 🎁WC- 5.1k
Comments and reblogs appreciated if you enjoy this smutfest (I'm shaming my ancestors with this one- (this header too cute for this FILTHY shit fr- this was a gift for hitting 3k followers- ya'll CHOSE thislol<3)

You’re not quite sure how you ended up here, dressed in a slutty christmas mini skirt, with white floof on the bottom, bright red fishnets and a little red top that’s covering almost none of your tits, dancing for a room of CEOs and business men. Handsome, tall, gorgeous fucking CEO’s, when you’re not in fact a stripper, on the night of Christmas Eve.
The offer had been way too good to turn down, you are slam broke after Christmas shopping and bills. There were a few other girls there, some already giving the men lap dances, the two men that are watching you eagerly, however, are Mr. Gojo and Mr. Sukuna, the ones that run this entire sky high building.
Mr. Gojo was towering tall, with shocking white hair and insane blue eyes, smirking as he watched you dance under the red glow of the giant room you all are in, it’s some insanely huge VIP room. Mr. Sukuna sits right by him, an ankle crossed over a knee, smirking at you as well, his shoulders are so broad it’s like that suit has to stretch over him, even his dress shirt is stretched on his strong chest.
He has tattoos decorating his hands, you wonder if they’re everywhere errantly as, they both watch you and murmur to themselves, you get self conscious, you wonder how you even got such an offer for this much money. Surely these men could get whoever they want, and probably experienced girls, you’re just a barista, and you only know them from serving their coffee.
One day one of their assistants came in and offered, so here you are, making more tonight then you would all month. You feel a set of ruby and azure eyes drinking in every inch of your body, as they sit alone on that red sofa, Gojo is sipping some fruity drink, Sukuna, whiskey on the rocks, vastly different, yet they both contain this cocky, rich aura.
“C’mere, sweets.” Gojo murmurs now, crooking two insanely long fingers, as the other women are taking the various men over to different rooms, giggling and running with drinks.
Is this… some sort of sex party!?
You walk over nervously, trying to get used to the insanely high platform heels, when Satoru yanks you on his lap, big hand splaying the smooth expanse of your back, bare in the scanty outfit. “Hello, Mr. Gojo.” You murmur, and he chuckles, hand slipping down to grip your ass as you sit on his thigh.
“You’re so cute. Isn’t she, Ryomen?” Satoru says softly, and Sukuna grins now, slipping a hand up your fishnet clad thighs, you gasp at the sensation.
“More than cute. Fucking sexy.” He snatches you off Satoru’s lap in two seconds, and Satoru huffs.
“Excuse me!? Rude.” Satoru snatches you back up, like you’re some toy, some little doll they’re playing with. “Me and her were talking.”
“I don’t wanna talk.” Sukuna has you back now, straddling him, it’s literally fucking obscene how you’re pressed against him, the only thing under this skirt is a bright red thong.
“Excuse me now? Are you all competing over me?” You ask, Sukuna snorts, gripping your chin roughly, squishing your cheeks.
“Mouthy brat, huh?” You glare, earning his eyebrows arrogantly.
“Ooh, she’s so cute mad, look at that nose scrunching up.” Satoru cooes, coming close and inhaling your hair, exhaling against your neck, tickling you.
“Are you sniffing me?” You demand.
“Oh she smells so good.” Satoru pulls back, grinning at you, and Sukuna turns your face to him roughly.
“Attention on me.” You roll your eyes, and earn his glare.
“I got paid to dance, not to do anything else.” You go to hop up, turning away, for you to get a resounding smack on your ass. You gasp, turning back to the two of them feigning innocence. “Listen, you two can fuck whoever, look at you all.”
They both stand now, Satoru directly in front of you, pressing you back against Sukuna’s hard body, men towering over you, men that smell good, that look good, that feel good. You gulp a bit, trembling now, feeling your nipples perk up, pressing on Satoru’s abdomen, and heat pool in your stomach.
“Sweets, all we want for Christmas is you.” Satoru says softly, leaning down, cupping your face, while Sukuna roughly grips your hips, his hard length already pressing on your back, as his mouth comes to your neck.
“You’re so fucking corny, Satoru, shut the fuck up.”
Satoru glares. “Yeah, fuck you, I’ll keep her to myself.”
“No you won’t. What he means is, we’re having you tonight, brat. We only want you.”
“We have only wanted you. Pretty barista.” Satoru smiles and kisses your lips now, with a lour ‘mwah’ earning Sukuna to turn your face to him, slamming a kiss, brutal and needy.
“You all… um I… mnh!” You cry out when Satoru’s cupping your breasts, thumbs brushing over your nipples, and Sukuna’s big rough hands slip around to your tummy, pressing on it, touching you over your panties, moaning.
“Already wet, Satoru. She’s so easy.”
“Stop talking about me like I’m an object. Assholes.” You glare back up at Sukuna, he seems even more pleased, Satoru reaches and touches you now too, making the panties sticky and drippy, as you clench around nothing.
“We’ll pay you double for the night.” Satoru says, and you sigh, shaking your head. “Triple?”
“I won’t fuck for money… I don’t even strip you know. Mnh!” You’re crying out again, head falling back on Sukuna’s strong chest, his starch dress shirt brushing your skin when he bites your neck, hard.
“Then let us keep making you cum all night, pretty.” Satoru’s biting the other side of your neck, your legs wobble so much you think you’ll just fucking collapse.
You feel the music thrumming along with your pounding heart and racing pulse, streaming through your veins, when Satoru’s walking you backwards, and you end up right on Sukuna’s lap. Satoru slides down your panties as Sukuna pulls up your skirt, his other arm wrapping your waist, while Satoru eyes your pussy, moaning while he gathers the slick pooling there.
“Oh my god she’s so fuckin’ pretty.” Satoru cooes, kissing the hood of your clit, you gasp at it, hands pulling on his hair. “Yes baby, pull me.”
Sukuna pulls your thighs apart as they threaten to close, laughing softly in your ear, his hands holding you open as Satoru’s part your lips. “Gotta get you nice and ready for us, brat.”
“Wh-what… I… Gojo!” You scream his name as he swipes his tongue up your slit, all while Sukuna is wrapping a huge tattooed hand around your throat.
“Satoru. While I’m drinking your pussy.” He looks up under snowy lashes at you, tongue dripping with saliva and your arousal. “She’s so yummy.”
Sukuna takes one of your hands, making you touch your puffy clit, then sucking on your finger, groaning out. “Fuck you taste good. Why don’t you cum for us, let’s feel you.”
You weakly whine out as Satoru is licking you again, this time fucking you with his tongue, Sukuna sloppy kisses you, biting your lips until they’re swollen, choking your throat tighter until you can’t breathe. Everything goes fuzzy as his ruby eyes glint, watching you hungrily as he squeezes away your oxygen, and Satoru’s tongue is in your velvety walls.
His nose bumps your clit as the wet muscle fucks you, until you’re screaming out, a hand pulling at his hair and earning his groan, when he flicks his tongue up to swirl your clit, making you cum so hard you nearly pass out. It washes over you in waves, all while Sukuna is controlling your breath, you scream out weakly, gushing wetness all over Satoru’s pretty face.
“Could crush your throat, y’know?” Sukuna whispers in your ear, letting you go as Satoru leans up, glistening from you and kissing you. You eagerly kiss him back, leaning up and crying out as Sukuna plunges two fingers in your slick hole, groaning at how your walls flutter. “Slutty little cunt.”
“Fuck.” Is all you manage, gazing at Satoru’s eyes, and Sukuna scoffs.
“I wanna keep you, I’ll eat you all the time.”
“That’s enough, up brat.” Sukuna taps your hip, Satoru helps you up, unsnapping your little bra, exhaling as your tits are revealed. Sukuna’s in front of you now, however, and Satoru sits, pulling you on him, pecking kisses up your neck as Sukuna’s pink hair is in your fingers, you pull at it and earn his moan. “Go ahead, put me where you want, little slut.”
“Little… you… ah!” He plunges his face against your cunt, devouring you at a pace you can’t stand, Satoru laughs now, turning your face to look into his pretty eyes.
“He’s so rude, I know Sweets. Oh…” You’re grinding on Sukuna’s face, head thrown back as you scream out, Sukuna bites your clit hard, the pain pricking you as Satoru is squeezing your tits. “You trying to outdo me!?”
Sukuna comes up for air, a psychotic look now on his face, he undoes his tie just a bit, before spitting on your clit, you’re gasping now. “I’ll always outdo you.”
“Will not!” Satoru says, but Sukuna plunges two fingers in your cunt, pressing up and down, working them in and out so quickly you’re a drooling mess. “Aww, look at her, so fucked out already.”
“Drooling, stupid pretty face.” You can’t manage a glare when Sukuna is fingering you like this, thick, long, calloused hands, and Satoru is pinching your nipples, kissing you and drinking in your cries, as Sukuna dives back down, one hand running over his cock, straining against his slacks, sucking your clit in his mouth as he’s pumping.
You feel the pressure building and building until your orgasm hits, you’re gushing ridiculously all over Sukuna’s face, wetness pouring on him as he laps it all up, sounds of the squelching wetness and him drinking you loud, even over the music that’s still playing. He sucks and bites each puffy lip, leaning back and smacking your pussy, as Satoru smacks your titties.
“Wh-what the… f-fuck…” You barely are able to think or function, much to their delight it seems.
“She came more for me. Amateur.” Sukuna says, and Satoru snorts, kissing a sticky hot trail up to your ear.
“She likes me better, I’m sweeter.”
“Tch, her cunt likes me better. Time to go take this somewhere else, though, what do you think, brat?”
“I’m no brat, you’re a dick.” You say with a scowl, he just smirks.
“Fuck you’re cute angry.”
“I’m not going anywhere with you.” Satoru has the suit jacket off himself and thrown over your shoulders, bringing you against him.
“See, she likes me more.” Sukuna rolls his eyes, hoisting you up over his shoulders like you’re nothing.
“Excuse me!? Set me down now!” Satoru smacks your ass, you glare at him now. “Really, you too?”
“It’s so bouncy, I’m sorry baby.” He leads you all out into the cold night, where you’re now shivering, until you’re plopped unceremoniously into a limo by Sukuna, laying you on the seat and eyeing your body hungrily, just in a skirt, ripped fishnets and Satoru’s open jacket.
“Fuck you’re pretty.” He murmurs, surprising you for a moment, you feel him hard and heavy over you, making your mind whirl. “My place.”
“No, mine!”
“Mine is closer.” He narrows his eyes up at Satoru, as his big hands slide down to your tits, and he’s bending over, sucking one into his hot mouth, you moan, body arching up against your will.
“You’re hogging her now! Oh fine but get up.” Sukuna sighs, releasing your nipple with a pop, but he just leans over you.
“Open that mouth, little slut.” You shake your head, and Satoru is laughing as Sukuna is opening your mouth for you.
“Told ya, she likes me more, I could ask her.” Sukuna spits in your mouth, you gasp, choking on it, he kisses you messy and sloppy, before getting up, grabbing the liquor bottle and downing a shot.
“Open, pretty.” Satoru says sweetly, but you feel he’s just as devious, though you can’t turn down his pretty eyes for shit. You do as he asks, to Sukuna’s anger, and Satoru spits in your mouth now too, humming as he closes your jaw. “Swallow. Open.” You do as he says. “You’re such a good girl for me.”
“Oh fuck you, Satoru.” Sukuna pops open a ring, you look in confusion as he takes a little line of white powder and snorts it, shaking his head.
“I want some!” Satoru leans up and snorts a line, taking some of the powder now and rubbing it all over your gums, making them numb. You gasp at the sensation, only for Sukuna to take some, spreading your thighs, shoving two fingers in your cunt, making it go numb.
“Oh my… what the…”
“Coke lips times two.” Satoru says with a maniacal laugh, opening his slacks then, gently brushing your hair back. “Why don’t you use them, baby?”
You’re on your knees in the seat, turned as Satoru pulls your hair up, and reveals his long, thick cock, pink tip drooling precum already. You feel your pussy clench around nothing, lips so fucking numb you can’t stand it. You lap some of the precum up, earning his whimper, Sukuna’s back behind you, taking another shot and rubbing your clit in rough circles.
“She’s soaking wet, must love being used.” Sukuna says, you hate it, that he’s right, but you focus on Satoru’s cock now, sucking it in your numb lips, he bucks his hips up as you do, starting to suck him inch by inch, drooling saliva down his length as his precum coats your tongue.
“F-fuck… baby…” Satoru’s shoving your mouth down on him, sliding his length down your throat, you choke on it as that tip hits your uvula, pussy starting to feel so good with the mix of the cocaine, your wetness, and Sukuna’s fingers. “Oh your throat… so tight- ah!”
You hear an unbuckle behind you, pulling up with a pop now, spit dripping in lines, Satoru exhales, kissing you again, before Sukuna has you turned, and you’re faced with his insanely thick cock. It’s as big as Satoru’s if not longer, but it was so much more girthy, you actually gulp, intimidated at how the fuck it’s going to fit, much to his pleased laughter.
You weren’t even sure Gojo would fit, but… that?
“Oh no. I need a shot for this.” You say, Satoru’s snickering and Sukuna strokes his length, grabbing your chin.
“Can’t take it, brat? Too big?”
“Jesus.” He hands you a shot now, you down it quickly, before kneeling back down, starting to lick at the thick reddened tip of him, oozing so much precum it’s ridiculous.
“You can take it, slutty brat.” He huffs, Satoru is running his tip along your soppy folds, exhaling as he watches your mouth slip down Sukuna’s length, you slowly take him bit by bit, feeling him tense and moan, his head falling back.
“Her pussy… oh my god.” Satoru whines out as his tip is running between your lips, teasing your clit and making you jerk, which Sukuna uses as an opportunity to shove your mouth down his cock further, you pull up sputtering.
“Don’t do that, ugh! Dick.”
“Excuse me?” He pulls your face up and smacks it lightly then, Satoru pulls you back against him.
“Don’t smack her pretty face.” Satoru kisses your cheek where it’s stinging, you glare at Sukuna, smacking him right back, making his cock twitch and Satoru snort in laughter as he pulls you back to suck him, fucking up into your mouth.
“She liked it.” Sukuna smacks your ass hard now, and you do like it, you’re moaning all over Satoru’s cock, slobbering on it. “Now get back here.”
“Ask nicely.” You say, and he shakes his head, brows raised as he leans over you.
“Fuck no. Come get this cock down your throat, if you can take it all I’ll make sure to pay you triple.”
“Nope, not wrecking my throat. I like to be able to swallow.” Sukuna rolls his eyes, yanking you back, you’re sucking him down helplessly. “You like it, don’t you, being used?”
You’re whining when Satoru’s stupidly long fingers sink into you. “She’s so ready to get filled.”
The car stops, and you’re wrapped back up in a jacket, this time Satoru has you picked up in his arms, bridal style versus Sukuna’s caveman tactics, as they lead you in an elevator up to Sukuna’s penthouse. You barely register how gorgeous his place is, how sleek and nice, when Sukuna’s yanking Christmas lights down, and Satoru’s sliding a Christmas hat on each of you.
“In the spirit you know.” You blink rapidly, Satoru has slipped off your skirt, eyeing your red fishnets. “Should we keep these on?”
“Yes but take off her heels, I feel she’ll try to kick me.” You giggle, earning both of their sardonic looks, and you then quiet. Satoru bends down, taking off your heels, as you stare at the lights Sukuna is holding in his hands.
“Sukuna… what the hell are those for?” Sukuna begins to wrap them under your tits, and soon Satoru and Sukuna are decorating you like some fucking tree, Satoru is wrapping one of your legs and literally giggling, and Sukuna one of your arms, the lights are glittering and glowing against your skin. “What the fuck, how coked out are you two?”
“Very.” They answer together, Satoru’s eyeing your tits hungrily, the rope of lights sits under and above them, pronouncing them beautifully, the santa hat tipping over his white hair just so when he smacks kisses on them.
“Me first.” Satoru says suddenly, and he’s carrying you over to the bed now, some insanely huge and fancy four post bed, with a beautiful floor to ceiling window outlooking the city.
“She’ll have to loosen up for me anyway.”
“Oh whatever.” You’re on your hands and knees now, the lights pressing into your flesh, Satoru’s burying his face against your pussy again, as Sukuna’s undressing, revealing a muscular, ripped body covered in black tattoos. He’s so sexy your mouth goes dry, much to the asshole’s pleasure.
“Cat got your tongue, brat?” He raises a brow, so cocky.
“Nope.” But you eagerly grab at his released cock, stroking him up and down, tongue flicking over the veins. Sukuna moans, head falling back, while you suck as much of him as you can.
“That’s it, she’s finally being a good girl.” Sukuna muses, Satoru’s got your clit in his mouth, making you so close you’re about to cum again, before he’s now lining his cock up with your little hole.
“Ready, sweets?” He asks, you turn back and look at him with lidded eyes, his lean, chiseled body, like made of marble.
“Y-yes.”
He smacks his tip on your cunt over and over. “And what do we say?”
“Please, Satoru- ah!” Satoru sinks his cock inside you in one long stroke, so long he bottoms out and hits your cervix, you scream out, opening your mouth for Sukuna’s thick ass dick to slam back in your mouth.
“F-fuck she feels s’good… she’s so tight.” Satoru whines, fucking into you, hands grabbing your bare hips, further pressing the little led bulbs and wires into your skin, you’re cumming all over him so quick it’s stupid. “So easy, huh? Just getting started baby.”
Satoru’s sweet boy act is essentially ended, he goes feral as he fucks into you, his heavy balls smacking your clit, you hear the noise of his skin smacking yours, and you gulping Sukuna’s cock as much as you can. “Look at me, now.”
You obey him, this random stranger, his voice commanding as he cups your face, fucking your throat as Satoru fucks your pussy. You’re so filled as they pull and push you between them both, choking you and stuffing you so full. Sukuna’s eyes are dilated to the point they look black, and Satoru’s now rolling his hips just so, forcing your eyes to roll back in your skull at how good it feels.
“Fuck she’s tryna milk me.” He whines out, leaning over you, you feel drips of his sweat on your bare skin when he’s bending over you completely, and your walls are gripping him like a vise. “Baby you’re sucking him s’good, look at you.”
“Perfect, pretty little whore.” Sukuna agrees, Satoru’s pulling your hair now, yanking you off Sukuna, pulling you onto your knees and fucking up into you, you scream out, while Sukuna comes and smacks your face again, each cheek, sharply hurting. “Admit you like it.”
“Oh f-fuck off… I like Satoru better.” Sukuna’s eyebrows go low, canines showing as he grins, finger pressing against your clit, forcing you to cum again all over Satoru’s cock.
“Knew she liked m-me more. Saw her first.” Satoru kisses you now, licking up Sukuna’s precum right off your lips, as you register his words, weakly shaking, your body trying to register all the pleasure it’s given.
“Saw me first?” You mumble, but now Sukuna has pulled you off Satoru, bending you over the bed, your feet are just dangling his bed is so fucking tall, and now Satoru’s cock is back in your face, he’s brushing your hair back sweetly. “No… what do you mean saw me first.”
“I saw you first, Satoru’s just the one that had the idea before me.” Sukuna’s thwacking his heavy cock on your ass, groaning as he pulls your thighs apart, fingers trailing down the ropes of lights coming off your left thigh, wrapping it back on. “Look at your slutty cunt, so cock thirsty, beat up already”
“Your pussy is pretty.” Satoru says with a smile, gasping as your tongue runs back up his pretty cock. “Mmm, taste how sweet you are?”
“Bring her roses too, simp. Oh my… fuck never mind- ah- don’t… blame you… fuck…”
“Ah!” Your back arches as you let out a muffled cry.
Sukuna’s groaning as he sinks inside your eager cunt, luckily Satoru stretched you some, because taking him is too much, you’re bucking your hips damn near fleeing, he grunts and drags them back. “Oh don’t run, brat.”
“You can take him, baby.” Satoru’s shoving his cock back up inside your mouth now, and tears prick your eyes as he gags you, and Sukuna’s sliding his cock even deeper, burning and stretching your skin.
“Your cunt is perfect. Fuck you’re not leaving.”
“Excuse-ah!” You go to say something, but Sukuna’s sinking even deeper, meanly bullying his way through your walls until he stuffs you so full, you’re screaming around Satoru’s length, Sukuna’s pressing your head down further, and Satoru is moaning and whimpering, cock twitching in your mouth.
“Oh, make her do it again, fuck… and I want her at my place.” You’re deep throating Satoru as Sukuna moves, and he fucks you hard, brutal, but it’s so goddamn good you can’t stand it. You’re whining as you look up at pretty blue eyes, feeling Satoru’s long fingers curl around your throat.
“Not a chance. Cunt is made for me.” Sukuna huffs, slamming you harder, pulling your hair and pulling you off Satoru, in some insane game they’re playing with you. Satoru taps your open mouth with his cock over and over, you whine out as his tip is rubbing your spot, making you see stars. “Oh she’s close again, ha!” He slams his cock so deep you feel like you’re split apart.
“You’re too rough with her. Tell him you like me more.” Sukuna fucks into you now, hammering his cock so fast you scream, unable to do anything but drool, dazed and stupid. “Sukuna let her talk.”
“Need to cum inside her, fuck, brat has the best pussy.”
“N-not a brat.” You manage to whisper, they both laugh at your attempt.
“She’s so cute, ugh.” Satoru pinches your cheeks now, before you know it Satoru is on his back and you’re riding him, or trying to, he’s so monstrous you’re basically shaking and trying to fuck half his cock, as Sukuna’s behind you, slipping two fingers up your little ass hole, you start gushing and throbbing around Satoru’s cock.
“Get the lights off me.” You mumble weakly, and they both ignore you, your hands are braced on Satoru’s chest, he looks at you with lust filled blue eyes, biting his full lower lip and pressing his fingers into your pelvis, when Sukuna picks you up, shoving his cock in your pussy instead, slamming into you, before putting you back on Satoru’s cock again.
Sukuna’s hand wraps back around your throat as you ride Satoru’s cock weakly, Satoru’s hitting that spot so deep, you’re hoarsely crying out now, shaking as you cling to both of them. “Can you take us both at once?”
“No way.”
“In the ass-”
“No way!” Satoru pouts up at you.
“Baby I wanna fuck your ass so bad though.”
“Uh-uh. And certainly not you.” You scowl back at Sukuna, who tightens his hand with a laugh.
“I’m cumming inside you first then.” Sukuna lifts you, they both are throwing you around like some little fucking rag doll, Satoru’s stroking his cock as Sukuna has you on your back, pressing your thighs up high, the ropes of the lights burning, you cry out, and he looks down at your tummy, grinning. “God look at you, fucked out little slut.”
You’re gasping when Sukuna leans low, his heavy weight on you as he slides your thighs so high, one over his shoulder, arch of your foot against his chest, making him so much deeper. You see the huge bulge move inside your tummy, making you heat up, cheeks furiously hot as you’re soaking his length.
“Can you take two loads baby?” Satoru asks, laying next to you now, jerking his cock, you weakly nod, earning his kiss, before Sukuna’s got your mouth again.
“Gonna fill you so full, gonna drip us for days, then fill you again. Slutty brat, want it huh?” You nod again, because you’re fucked too stupid to argue, and when Sukuna shoves so deep you’re cumming again, milking his cock for all his sticky white ropes of cum, drooling out of your hole now, down his cock. “Fuck… fuck… you…”
He kisses you, oddly sweet for pounding you full as you’re roped in Christmas lights, his santa hat falling to the side finally, pushing more and more cum inside you, exhaling and finally getting just a tiny bit less hard. You’re spasming, orgasm washing through your wrecked body and mind. Sukuna kisses down your neck, brushing your hair back and looking at you.
“Gonna knock you the fuck up, hah.” You gasp, eyes widening, making him grin like a psycho again.
“No, she’ll have my babies thank you.” Satoru’s on you next, shoving his cock inside you, you’re already dripping Sukuna’s cum as he does, it’s so filthy and nasty, the wet sounds Satoru’s cock makes, as he’s on top of you, and watching his own bulge in your tummy, now grinning like a psycho himself. “Oh fuck, feel me?”
“Everywhere.” You murmur weakly, because you do, and your words make him moan out, slamming your thighs up in a mating press, you’re folded in half as he fucks out Sukuna’s cum and yours.
“Gonna get his all out before I fill you with mine. I’ll cum even more. Fill you s’good pretty girl.” Satoru’s eyes are so bright blue it’s impossible to look at, but your own eyes are slamming shut as the nth orgasm hits, you’re covered in goosebumps as Sukuna watches you all, his cock still heavy and semi hard, in fact it’s getting hard again already.
You’re clinging to the sheets under you weakly, Satoru’s pumping his hips, you’re so wet your cunt greedily sucks him up, Satoru’s long fingers press deeply against your calves as he rails you, slowing finally, hips stuttering, you start feeling him thicken so deep. He’s grabbing your face with both hands now, whining into your mouth as he fills you full of cum.
Your second load pumped is even more cum than Sukuna, he’s stuttering his hips as he lets out breathy cries, you’re shaking as he shoves his cum so deep, against your cervix, pumping it more and more. You feel like you’re going to pass out when he’s finally done, you feel too full, feel it in your stomach, and soon Sukuna is on one side, Satoru on the other, untangling you.
They pull off the lights and are brushing their fingertips up and down your skin, covered in lines and forming bruises. Satoru’s gently kissing them, and Sukuna is humming with pleasure as he presses against the divots in your soft skin. You’re struggling to get a coherent thought to work in your fucked out brain when Sukuna stands now.
“Shower, brat?” He asks, and you exhale, nodding.
“Yeah but I can’t stand up.” You earn two big ass grins, Sukuna picks you up and carries you, Satoru’s firm ass is jiggling just a bit as he runs over to the bathroom, starting the hot spray.
“Weak and pathetic.” Sukuna says, with a tsk, you glare up at him again, as he takes off the santa hat that somehow stayed on your head, you have absolutely no clue how so. “But so fucking pretty like this.”
“So pretty.” Satoru turns you to him, kissing you deeply, you limply fall against him, body still shaking, cum dripping out from both of them, sticky on your thighs, you feel fucking boneless now. “I’ll wash your hair, sweets.”
“Mmhm.” Is all you manage, now the three of you are in the huge tiled stand up shower, Sukuna closes the glass, entrapping you all in the steamy hot spray, it beats down on your body, making your aches ease as the scalding water hits.
“And you’ll wash my hair, brat.” Sukuna says, you snort.
“You’re too tall.” He gets on his knees, Satoru’s cock is pressing on your back as he massages your scalp, kissing down your neck, and Sukuna is staring up at your bare cunt, all puffy from how much it’s been through. You gasp when he kisses it.
“Merry Christmas to me.” He murmurs, lapping at you again, Satoru is biting your neck and wrapping his arms around you.
“Our little present.” Satoru smacks little mwahs of kisses, big hands gripping your tits. “You’re so on the naughty list now.”
Sukuna laughs against you. “You’re an idiot, Satoru.”

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